Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Well, my friends, I have to say, it's been a long week.
I have been down for the count with the Colitis.
After switching medications around a couple of times, I am keeping my fingers crossed.
It's a nutty disease. 
No one really knows what causes it.
No one really knows what brings on the flare-ups after being symptom free for so long.
There are lots of theories, but not all of them work for all people. So, you pick and choose your course. Right now I am gluten, dairy, raw, nut, seed and coffee free. Not that I have an appetite for anything. Kinda makes it easy. 
I am swallowing an average of 20 pills everyday, hoping to stay away from the dreaded Prednisone.
I have to say, though, I am sleeping like a rock. All the time. Nothing like being at church on Sunday and having to get up and leave so I don't put my head down on the empty chair next to me. Oh, it sure looked good. I dunno, maybe no one would have minded if I had curled up...

I debated telling all of this.
Blogs are supposed to be happy places. 
But I have always been honest with you, as my life just lends itself to a lot of reality.
I don't write this for sympathy. 
(I am a big believer in prayer, however!)
And I do write to let others know they are not alone.

I do think it's important to be honest in our blogs. 
Life is life. Not everyone (...anyone) has it all together. When we let others know they aren't alone in their struggles, I think it brings about more healing. A more level playing field.
I won't go into raw details of what I've been through this week, as that's just a little too much information. But I will be honest in that dealing with this brings about fear, and frustration, and makes one question the why of everything. It makes me question what I really want to do, if I should do it, and how am I supposed to do it if I'm down for the count? It makes me wonder about timing. It brings thoughts of, "I thought I was supposed to...." and "Wait. I thought everything was lining up just so. Why isn't it going according to plan?" 
It makes me think thoughts like, "How many times am I supposed to start over after being knocked down?" 
But am I really being knocked down? 
I'm not in the hospital with my child having a 5 organ transplant.
I didn't have a double mastectomy this week.
I'm not suffering from a debilitating depression.
I think we are all in the same pool, and some of us are in the deep end, some of us are in the shallow end. Some of us are treading water, some of us are hanging onto the sides of the pool for dear life. But we have all been in the pool.

It's a humbling ride, this life.
I am beyond grateful for caring friends and sweet family.
Grateful for watching movies with Brenna.
For living in an age of such medical advancements.
For blogging, and friends like you.

So, for now, I'm taking a little bit at a time.
I'm making a little headway on getting this Colitis thing under control.
Missing coffee, trying different teas.
Watching Alvin and The Chipmunks with Miss B.
I think we have seen We Bought A Zoo three times. It's my new favorite...
I'm aiming for the art show on Saturday. With a lot of help. And not a lot of expectations. Which is kinda nice.

Thanks for listening.


  1. I love you Lynn! Thank you for being honest about life. This last week has been a little frustrating for me. I think I just needed a good cry. I am so grateful for all that God has given me, most of all my family in Christ. You are much loved and appreciated.
    ♥ Steph

  2. Great post Lynn. Couldn't agree more with your words of being honest about what life hands us. Love you little piece of artwork. It radiates happiness.

  3. Nothing wrong with being honest...sorry you're going thru this. Your strong faith must be very comforting. Keep smiling-try anyhow.

  4. oh I just want to reach thru the screen and give you a big hug!!!

    You speak so true and so loud.
    I love honesty in blogland, no one is perfect....
    I totally love your words of treading water and that it could be so much worse.
    We all go thru our ups and downs in life and this is how we learn to cope and to live. It makes us stronger right??
    Post like this make us stop and think, be thankful for what we have and have empathy for those going thru hard times. Reach out and shout out if we are in pain or struggling. Learning how to ask for help is the biggest struggle I have. And always remember to ask others, and I mean really ask others "How are you?"
    Thank you Lynn, my thoughts are with you. So wishing I could be there for you.

  5. Darn that colitis:( You know I can relate....so sorry this week has been a drag. Sometimes a forced "break" is exactly what we need (but so damn frustrating). Big Hugs!!!

  6. Oh Lynn...I'm so sorry you are dealing with all of this my friend! And the added discouragement on top of it too. I will be praying that you will start feeling better and that the Colitis gets under control. I'm sorry you are in a season like this but just know that you aren't alone! And I agree that we have to be honest on our blogs so that others can feel supported and encouraged. Thank you for letting us in on these parts of your life! :-)

  7. Oh man, that sounds miserable! Feeling so bad and not being able to eat hardly anything and not feeling well enough to enjoy pretty much anything is not a good place to be. BUT you write about it in a great way! GET WELL SOON :-)

  8. Prayers? Done. Sending love your way. Xo

  9. Dear Lynn
    Keeping you in my prayers and my thoughts. I hope each day you will heal quickly and get the comfort that you need. I think its wonderful that you have shared so we can all reach out to you


  10. I'm so sorry to hear this, Lynn! It IS a really rough disease. My son is also having a bad time with it right now...you feel like there's nothing you can eat! I hope they can get you into remission soon... a BIG XO to you, Lynn!

  11. I'm so sorry to hear you are not feeling up to par. I do love hearing your honesty. And like you said we all have our ups and downs. I sometimes feel if we didn't have the downs we would not appreciate the ups.. Does that make since. My prayers go out to you my friend..

    Hugs, Linda

  12. Oh my friend, I understand this so well because of the fibro flair ups. (I'm not comparing the two because I know that colitis is much worse.) I can and will pray about this with a heart full of empathy. I'm glad you shared it. You're right. It's so refreshing to be honest.

    You need something better to watch, though. How about "The Princess Diaries"?

    Goodbye trolley people!!

    (I remembered. Did I make you smile just a little?)

  13. Perspective. I love your pool metaphor - it was beautifully done. I hope you you fell better soon Lynn!

  14. Lynn, I'm thinking of you, the best was what you wrote about the pool. Thsi is so true. I'm hoping and praying you find relief. Take care and hope your next post finds you feeling better. Good luck with the show on Saturday. Let us know how it goes! Fran xo

  15. You must be on my mind, Lynn.
    I know that you're in my prayers so it makes sense.

    If you have the time and energy, take a peek at my blog post today and see what "we" have been up to.

  16. Hi, another blogger says she loves your blog, so here I am to check it out. Yes, we are all in the pool; Henri Nouwen said it well in The Wounded Healer. I hope you find wonderful cure for colitis. I am your new follower.

  17. Hi Lynn:

    I just hopped over from Debbie's blog to see this friend she thought she saw at Wal Mart! It sure made me laugh, bet you are laughing too.

    This is such a good post, and such a reminder to be honest and not gloss things or sugar coat, but also to keep our perspective about the good and the bad.

    I also just loved your post on the prom... how refreshingly precious!!

    I've sure enjoyed my visit!


  18. Thank you
    Thank you
    Thank you!!!!

    I really appreciate your honesty!

    Today is a day of barely clinging to the edge of that pool and I have been pondering for weeks about honesty in my blog. I have opened up about my challenges and it can be a scary thing to do but I don't think I can have a blog "persona" -it feels empty and hollow to me. I might turn some readers away with my honesty - but it feels more authentic to me.

    Once again thank you. I hope your dietary changes help and that you feel yourself again soon! It is encouraging to see you creating despite forces against you!!